I Want to Feel Human Again

I'm a lesbian, and I came out to my parents sometime in January. They're pretty homophobic, so I expected that they would react badly, but they ended up telling me that they still love me and would never treat me differently. But now that the shock of it has died down, they're even more homophobic than they were before, telling me how I'm sinning constantly. I feel guilty, because I feel like I should be grateful that they haven't kicked me out or harmed me, but I feel so alone in my own house. I don't eat anymore, I can't sleep. I just want to feel human again. Sometimes I wish I had just stayed in the closet and married a man. Maybe that would've been a better alternative, being content with faking it all my life.

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Anonymous, UK